Regrets

          People say that I’m strong, they think I'm a fighter and they think that most of the time; I can always stand up for all the things I say with a smile and without mortification, but what they don’t know, behind my smile is a timorous and bleeding me. To tell you the truth, I was really dismayed on what I did; I regretted a lot of things from my past. Until now, I can’t stand up without shame and tell things that happened before to someone even if he/she is willing to listen and the sad thing above all is that I’m already having all the consequences and I’m accepting it with fear and slowly realizing that maybe later on, my life is the next thing that I’m gonna give to pay off my sins.

          As I accept all the consequences, I must stand for what I did, even if I can’t. I know that there’s no turning back now coz it’s already here. I must stand for that decision that I have once thought was right... and now that I know that I had made a REAL FUCKIN BAD MOVE.... there's no other way but to think of ways to make it better at least Hope for the best and be contented of what I have and what my new life may bring me whether it may be bad or hopefully good things. I'VE RUINED MY LIFE, THAT'S TRUE, and it’s up to me if I’m gonna ruin it again for my redeem and actualization. For now, I think, the best thing to do is that I must stand up again and build my success on the debris of my defeat and start to make things better or at least think of it like its getting better.

"Mistakes are painful; but as time goes by, it becomes a collection of experiences called Lessons. Live life and embrace life lessons! :)"